Nightmares

I keep having these terrible nightmares and I don't know how to stop them. They're always about my dad and they feel so real. I will wake up in pain from whatever happened in the nightmare. I wake up crying multiple times throughout the night. It is really starting to impact my daily mood. I find the only time I don't have nightmares is when I have my boyfriend next to me. He knows how to hold me to make me feel safe and it is amazing.
I have to get them under control though.

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